Phant0m described me all over in what he said. I left, blinded by lies from DoMeD. He basically used my disabilllaties against me I geuss. The next day. When my medacine was still kicked in, I had a collsion with reality. I though 'what the heck did I just do?'. I'm, of course, willing to undergo any circumstances to return. My insomnia has increased since I left, and my school work is begining to become unusually aggravating and I can't concentrate due to lack of sleep. I'm confused, depressed, tired, and most of all angry with myself now. I am pissed with my brain because of it's short fuse proccessing system. I'm willing to start out as a recruit again, take in reticule, do 1,000 graphics work for the counsil, rebuild a clan, organize 200 members, kiss every privates feet, tell Gunner I am a lonely loser and an idiot for leaving in the first place, pay Viper $20, hug Dinerbro, do whatever Buda tells me, rebuild another clan, do 200 forms of a clan compete banner for counsil voting, detroy my computers memory, put an extra hour of work into all of my XG duties, tell D3sign he's better than me at gfx (that one really hurts), do whatever graphics 007 tells me to do within 5 days, and personally send every sections leader, division leader, and counsil leader a thank you E-mail for allowing me a second and final chance.
That is how much this matters to me.
